unfinished

I can't sleep

and in my head

the memories of your skin

the smooth silk of our embrace

and I cast you away once

to regret it since

And since then i've been lost

And since then i've been alone.

quest

From a warm place in my head

The souvenir of you come and haunt me

The ghost of you laying next to me

Peacefully breathing under my watch

Angels from above watching over us

Giving me a quest I didn't expected

''watch over her'' they say

And I will protect you with all my beeing

From a deep place inside of me

my role towards you become clear

I am to be what you need me too

I'll shield you from the hit you don't wanna face

And this is where I understand what it is

To be trully commited to someone

Over your own desires and needs

Be there, be strong, for she needs it.

je serai là

le sacrifice de soi

comme preuve de mon amour

Les détails abstraits

D'un contrat que je chéri déjà

J'ai laissé ma fierté et mes besoins derrière

pour pouvoir réussir a te redonner le sourrire

Et je fredonne un air lyrique

En attendant les premiers gestes de nos nouveaux liens

Je prend dans mon âme

La responsabilité de ton bonheur

Et ce malgré mes sentiments

Et malgré les attentes qui te font si peur

Je te laisserai vagué

Puisque belle seulement en liberté

Mes mots et mes bras seront seulement un port

Et je ne veux pas être ton drapeau, mes tes vivres.

Je prend sur moi de me controler de moi

De t'apporter au creux de moi

Te blottir contre ma chaleur

Pour que tu puisses te refaire et revivre des douceurs

Et tes peurs qui t'empechais hier de t'ouvrir

Aujourd'hui oublie les et laisse moi est ton sourrire

Je ne te trahirai pas par moi même

Et les sentiments que tu n'as pas ne sont pas nécessaire

Je serai ce que les autres te diront impossible

Parce qu'au merveilleux l'impossible est tenue

Je serai celui sur qui tu pourras te tournée en tout et pour tout

Malgré tes doutes et les moments ou tu auras oublié

Prend ma main, laisse moi ouvrir le chemin

Laisse ma main pour réalisé qu'elle sera la demain

Laisse moi m'épanouir de toi et ensemble ce comblé

Dans le non dit et dans la liberté

Je serai ce qu'il te faudra

Pas toujours ce que tu voudras

Resterai flexible

Puisque tu es comme la marée, changeante.

embrace.

Revolution around the globe

Blood and murder for ideals

And while the planets get crazy

All I can think is how crazy YOU made me

And from this thought I feel guilty

For not caring enough about all that is going on

And all those peoples who wish they had my life

But all I wish is to share it with you

And from this pain of yours you can't get over

I on the other hand, am ready to roll over

I can't beleive you exist sometimes

And you kinda make sense of all the crazyness to me

And i'd prolly start carring back if I had you

But for now i'll be selfish and egoistical

Because i can't think straight when your on my mind

And lady, your always there

Obsessive compulsive behavior

Of daydreaming of those kisses I might never have back

And from this my days are modified

To a tale of wait and pray for your embrace.

night

A night sky full of stars

A cold wind gently rocking snow

Lights reflecting on the perfect whiteness

And a vision of you threw my tears

grotte

procession de bonheur et de sourrire

La chaleur se propage dans tout les coeurs

et pourant dans le miens le froid perdure

pourquoi suis-je intouché par l'ambiance?

les festivités vont bon train

et les couleurs sont brillante

mais a travers mes yeux

tout est gris et noir et sale

l'attente m'aura tout pris

dans ma grotte d'espérance

j'aurai perdu l'excitation du moment

et la joie instantanné

Mélodie d'une peine

Mélancolie, d'une mélodie romantique

Le piano lourd et pesant

Pèse sur les notes dissonantes de mes peines

Mes amours ravagées ne sont plus la symphonie d'autrefois

La marche nuptiale si loin déjà

Je ne voulais pas entendre les accords d'un requiem

Et lorsque la dernière mesure sera joué

Que restera-t-il de moi a aimé?

Et les violoncelles triste me converse

Et tout doucement me berce

Me laissant sans voix

Mes larmes sont instrumentale

Et je te vois loin de moi

Et pourtant hier encore tu étais si près

Ton rythme dictant le miens

Et sans lui que des silences...

seeing you

A cascade of gold

Flying down your shoulder

From it I see the sun

And a smile begins to form

Once a queen

Now elevated to a goddess

I've grown from you

And the warmth you inspire me

Like a small flame burning inside

Like a little heat keeping me alive

There's memories mixed up with hope

And I like how they blur together

And you don't know yet

But I sure can see

That something is meant to be

Between you and me

I can't keep ignoring the beauty

You shed on every little things

I see you

Do you see me?

Billy Bragg - New England

''I loved the words you wrote to me
But that was bloody yesterday
I can't survive on what you send
Every time you need a friend''

resentment blanket.

It's not new anymore

It's starting to be part of the ''decor''

It's common and comes with me

It's now just just another sad story

I carry the pain like a winter coat

For it warms my blood with resentment

I can't seem to forgive

Even less to forget

And while the time pass by

I make peace with her

But hate myself just more

And it's just getting harder to cope with.

rambling

How come the same smile can bring you so much joy and 1 month later bring you equal amount of pain? I used to love seeing her smile, now I can't stand it without starting to cry...

What do I have to do end it? I wish I could amputate my memories of her so I could act like I didn't beleive in it so much.

Is there any place that could make me forget? Tell me yes so I can move on? This sadness and sorrow is just too much pain to bare.

B.o.B - Don't Let Me Fall [Official Music Video]

hate

it's been a long time since i've felt so much hate

since i've been hurt that much

For a while, comforted in a fake paradise

I guess I forgot about it

Resentment is such an harsh feeling

It's sneaky and always come from behind

But when it bites

It takes everything with it.

Memories, memories, memories

What is it that was so pleasant?

All I remember is what I can't have anymore

And just how much of a lie I lived

Every single one of your smiles

Is a knife cutting me from the inside

Freeing an opaque substance...

Hate filling me up, controlling me and directed at you

I'd rather not have lived our past

It hurt me and broke me

And your not even aware of it

You broke something in me and I hate you for it.

blue

Since as far as I remember you

Since i've understood an old cliché;

''from the second I saw you''

I knew i needed you to stay

Home of my past fantasy

Guardian of my future desires

You are the vessel that let me be

The balance that keep me from fire.

Long lost, to be found again

The absence of you I went through

Reminded me that you didn't start as just a friend

And every words since have been blue

Beyond Repair

Sacrifice, why do we make them?

Why changing ourself so much?

For the distant hope of a tandem,

That would maybe last longer and such?

Is there something, when in love, too hard to do?

So why then does it end after the efforts?

Why is the commitment and passion not abble to hold the fort?

So many questions that we don't have the beginning of a clue!

Make her a priority, adore her with passion, don't be selfish...

But in the end what's the point if it's to destroy us

If even with all those, not satisfied; why then make such a fuss

Why make beleive, when only in love....ish.

Semi mesure is not enough they say

But what when you give your all

What when you let yourself completely fall

And all you get is a hesitant; I may

Broken beyond possible repairs

Hurt beyond possible logic

And it's a cliché I know but it's so tragic

That you might miss the one, because someone wasn't fair.

+/-

Plus d'émotions

moins d'analyse

Plus de décisions

moins de couardise

Plus de paix

Moins de guerre

Plus de lait

Moins de misère

Plus de valeurs

Moins de cérébralisation

Plus de couleur

Moins de complication

Plus d'art

Moins de snobbisme

Plus de fetard

Moins de glauckisme

Plus de passions

Moins de doute

Plus de relations

Moins de deroute

Plus d'amour

Moins de peine

Before I left

I was in a room full of emptiness, when I had memories of what once was. Living in a lie is no way to live at all. When I wake up I swore I would remember this. Letting my mind wonder to what conclusion I once reached, I realised I already knew all this, just momentarily forgot it. In order to respect love I had to respect myself... where did I lost this? Where did it became so abstract to me that I forgot about it?

Now i remember, why I once left to come back more balanced, more aware, more focused... And I remember the name I use to whisper in my mind during that time. There it is I remember! I've once waited so long for somebody that I thought the day would never come, why is it so hard now to wait for something i've desired for so long? Desired !?!? Forget it, long for! There's hope in the sky, like always, it's just a mather of looking up instead of looking at the ground. My balance so different then others... i cannot use hapiness as a way to balance myself, i can only use beauty, passion and absolute to feel balance. My mind work in absolute therefore to be balance I have to be able to absolutly feel and not feel at the same time.

I remember thinking why was I bothering? I remember thinking that i already knew the answer even if the answer wasn't available... But could it be that I wasn't ready to deal with the answer in itself? I remember a look so pure I could bait in it! I remember beeing so revolted against so many things and angry at so many people, and then that look that changed it all... Closing my eyes i can still remember the ''click'' in my mind where I understood that sweetness should always prevail over anger, where bliss was a state of consciousness not a state of blind anger or numbness.

I'll see where this is all going... maybe, maybe not... I wish / not.

Fall from heaven

Touching heaven

In the cold dark night

Memories of so much light

I'm smitten

While angels keep flying above

Forsaken in those sacred land

My soul can't make amend

Not enough was love

My fall back to reality

When your hand left mine

Broke all the bones in my spine

Can't manage to be happy

Everything reminiscent of you

I gave you all I could in me

Also all I had in me

And now there's nothing I can do

Glorified...

I gave you my heart

I had your nights

I gave you a life

I had a week

When i poured my soul into us

I received a kiss

When I made a life with you

I received doubts

What are your best memories

Were the beginning of our life

In the end the realisation struck me;

I dreamed all this, nothing else then a glorified rebound.

And even then I cannot help

To go back if I was asked too

And i hate myself for wanting you

Wanting so bad the pain you gave me

Where is my past pride?

You left with it!

Where is my joy?

It left when you told me i wasn't enough

I'd like to hate you so bad

But I just can't bring it in me

I have put already too much

Let me be me again...

premier skit...

Souvenirs d'un moment déjà pas si lointain

Les regards ce perdent comme jadis

Je crois voir au loin ce que j'ai déjà vue

Et saisi de nouveau par autant de beauté

J'ai rêvé longtemps

Des jours durant

Lorsque tout a coup j'aurais ce moment

Et remercie aujourd'hui l'émotion qui me prend

Dans un naturel déconcertant

J'ai sentie encore une fois le temps

Se figé et chauffer mon sang

Et sentir l'énergie me réchauffant.

The little box

I gave you a little box

Delicate and fragile

In it i've put my most precious possession

And told you to take care of it

But then you drop the box to the ground

And it shattered in thousands of little pieces

It's the only box I had

And the treasure inside was lost

I called that box my heart

I put my faith in love in it

And you dropped it from so high

That i wonder if i'll ever find it back.

transformation de regret.

Depuis le fin fond de mes souvenirs

Là d'ou tu m'es apparru la première fois

Dans cette période de ma vie ou tout était gris

Et depuis tu n'as de cesse que de m'éclairé

J'entend les sons de nos voix secrète de jadis

Quand nous nous cachions à la vue de tous

Quand nos secrets ce croisaient dans un tango

Et depuis je n'ai eu de cesse de danser.

Le regret que j'ai eu

Maintenant, depuis longtemps, un espoir.

J'ai plus de doutes sur le quand et le comment

Que sur le si et le maintenant

Douce amie qui me fait rêver

Parce que tu l'as toujours fait

Et malgré nos moments de silences

Je ne puis m'empecher, de vouloir nos prochaines paroles.

Ma peine

On me demanda comment était ma peine,

Je répondis que c'était comme si les couleurs étaient retiré de ma vie.

On me demanda quelles sont tes regrets,

Je répondis que c'était ceux que je n'aurais jamais la chance d'avoir.

How it feels.

Le doute disparue

La société nous a conditionné a arreté de pensée. Dans la consomation, nous avons assumé le meilleur de l'homme. De la cigarette, au sucre en passant par les drogues, notre cerveau ne connait plus le dout et pourquoi le connaitrait-il puisqu'après tout, il s'agit de quelqu'un comme moi qui me le propose, qui me l'invente.

Nous avons oubliés notre capacité de raisonnement face a la demande assumant de facto que puisqu le produit est offert iol est nécessarieemnt bon pour nous. Nous sommes au début des premières prises de consicences avec la cigarettes les agents de conservations, les sucres et les gras. L'homme apprend a ces dépends que la société n'est plus a son image, mais à l'image d'un idéal sécuritaire et fialve que nous n'avons jmais vraiment atteind et jamais vraiment vérifié avant de lui donné notre confiance.

Glither.

Form a not so distant pass

I remember your embrace

Like a warm blanket

Over my cool soul

Your eyes glittering in the dimmed lights

Like a thousand stars all there for me only

You pale skin, like the moonlight itself

Beamin on me and making me part of this universe

Floating above reeality in the essence of your kiss

I swear to anything you want me too

And dizzyness takes me over

Oh that sweet bliss of ever lasting love

You are all at the same time

Both angel and heaven

Your words of comfort

The only religion I need

eternity

after life escape my conscious

My dreams take over my mind

And in that aura of purity

I see and touch you

Be mine sweet star

let us, for that moment, be us

and fly so high

that our eternity reach each other

Brunante

Brunante d'une nuit qui ne fut pas

Puisque je me hante de mon trépas

Et que puisqu'il est sans toi

Je ne me retrouve pas

present

When you say live your life daily

Try to enjoy and be happy

Don't you see

Thats i need you in order to be?

Can't you figure out that i live in the wait

Of the moment you'll finally lift the weight

And finally join me in faith

That our love will reach new height.

All myself is pushing me towards you

Everything is making me fall in love with you

But what's that wait for, except making me blue

Give me hope please, just a few

Sarah McLachlan - Sweet Surrender

It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home

And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

You take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
(who are you?)
are you an angel?
am I already that gone?
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees
(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

(who are you?)
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

And I don't understand
HOW the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things
I miss everything *about you*

It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room

(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

The church of you

I've never seen a smile like yours

Those lips were a part of heaven to me

A piece of my paradise put on earth so I beleive

And what if I told you, I found faith in you

The meaning of it all, that word faith;

Don't understand, but stay committed,

Get hurt but keeping your hope

Feeling lost and alone, but stay loyal

I remember a time where my head

Was the ruler of my heart

And than my soul, safely, would follow

Now my soul lead and the rest try to keep paste

Never took that big of a jump

The leap of faith, they call it

Please tell me my Goddess is real

I'm not sure I could survive the disillusion

Be my church by your eyes

Be my prayer by your lips

Your body is my temple

In your embrace is where I find the process of the reward.

Prayer to my sweet.

O my sweet the pain is sharp

And you hit me like a dart

Your kisses are an addiction

From wich I could die of passion

Your my best and my worst

The things I wouldn't do to be your first

I wish so bad to live this fantasy

The one we talk and imagine daily

And again you flee my intensity

What if you let me be me? If only!

Cloud come over us again

May our love prevail, amen!

Kingdom

Light shed on a gloomy night

I feel darkness fight

The battles is fixed

And Their will be no miss

As tear reach my eyes

This pain I despise

Comes back so swiftly

The sadness, O so mighty

Blues me to bed my sweet

Your the one who swept me off my feet

I claimed your heart

But you pinched mine like a dart

There is no more energy

For me to try and get free

I surrender my flag to you

For I can't live without you

Be my realm to go back home to,

Be the kingdom for us two.

Bless me with your divine grace

Be the goddess I praise

Cauchemard

J'halète dans le sommeil léger

Le coeur qui bat la chamade

Les images de sang et de mort

Divise mes heures de repos

Et quand je me lève enfin

Les souvenirs d'une nuit tourmenter

Me hanteront toute la journée

Et je serai, que l'ombre de moi-même

Je tente pas tout les moyens

De me reprendre en mains

Mais la force de mon subconscient

Plus forte que ma raison

Ma tête ne gagne plus

Le coeur en miette

L'âme que je cherche

Suis-je moi, ou qu'une enveloppe?

.

Another sleepless night

Remembering other nights

When love was soft

When kisses were just.

Hommage to 2Pac and BIG

*on this very date ine the year 1996 a giant of music was shot dead Tupac Shakur, a few months later Notorious BIG was murder. This is an hommage to the two legends that left us too quickly. May their talents and skills live forever.

In this date where the East met the West

By the speed of bullets

Legends were born

And the fight begun

Monsters of a movement

were born and died at the same moment

And violence reached a peak

Some swear to never repeat

Make our movement peaceful again

remember the roots of those mens

Who spilled the blood

And started the flood

Music should prevail

Indeed peace unvail

We are all brothers

Who should protect against others

And it cost us talents

It cost us moments

That we will never get back

And a reputation that was sack

.

Mes ancêtres diluée dans un guerre de tranchée

Les langues s'entremelent nous transformant en ennemis

Tandis que nos mots et nos langues nous sépare

Nous oublions nos origines commune de révolution passé

lueur du matin

La lueur du jour n'est pas encore levée

Que déjà mes yeux sont éveillé

Dans le silence d'un jour qui n'est pas encore

Le froid de la solitude, c'est la mort

Touché mélancolique de couverture gelée

Fixant l'oreiller vide à mes cotés

Le silence d'un matin solitaire

Et la journée reste a faire

Les pleures comme un torrent

J'avais souffert ainsi il y a longtemps

La tête comme un pression constante

Je revois mes erreurs latente

Le vide au coeur

Est-ce déjà l'heure?

L'enveloppe de mon corps se lève

Et mes veines se vident de leurs sèvent.

the text

You took something in me

And I’ll never get it back

Feeling it only in your embrace

Living only in their expectations

And took my heart

On a divine night

Now im just the shelf

That carry it around

I tought i’d never find this again

Swore on myself to never get caught up again

But here it is here I am

Lost in the web of your charms

Destroy me or feed me

I long lost control of me

And while you think and sway

I hurt and love everyday

Who was I kidding

When I left you darling

For me there is no more redemption

It is you who got my attention

I had lost myself in you

Way before I met you

And I’ve been called a fool for this

But I know, it’s you i’ve always missed

Forgive me for loving too much

I can’t help but crave your touch

Never been cast away before

And with you I always want more

Infatuated by the goddess of my dream

Your lips are for me a stream

Where I baith in blissfulness

And wait for your next caress

I’ve hurt you in such a way

Something i’ve never tought i,d have to say

That our life hurt me

That our love is killing me

Unknown path for both of us

We got scared of lust

Our attraction deeper than magic

The ride so hard that i got sick

I’ve unlearned how to be without you

When away uniting again is all I want to do

Life is a game I dare not play

If your not my partner along the way

Please stop pushing me

And finally let us be

Enough with both of our past

Let’s build a future that’s gonna last

words

As my heart failed to graps the meaning of these words

As my life, in front of me smile and go away

My hapiness goes on a long trip and will not be back without you

Dry smile betraying the true deepness in my look

It's not profond meaning but total emptyness

I cannot find myself, even in a mirror

Fleeing into numbness, even that feels better than consciousness

Silence hurts, words too!

Not sure wich one I prefer anymore.

Brûlé

Dans la foulée de la mort ambrée

S'embrase les mots du coeur

Noircie du carbone des passions passé

Asséchée du fiel des douleurs

Fleurs fânées par trop de caresses

Les bourgeons d'un nouveau printemps

Perdent déjà leurs couleurs

Les bouquets séché seront mon cerceuil

Les claires de lunes m'auront coutés

De sommeil et d'espoirs

Et lorsque je rêvais de paradis

C'est dans vos yeux que je voyais les anges

a Thanks to the soldiers

Men's and women's who carry the flags

Standing proud and strong while others brags

Filling a duty only a few have the courage too

Only a handful are brave enough too

While the critics pour on your duty

You still protecting our liberty

Paying the high price for our free speech

Even when to you we preach

I thank you all you soldiers

Carrying those orders

From the very people that blame you

For that I thank you.

IT

Entering within myself

I see the nightmare come once again

The past is present

In rush of resent

I construct my fortress

I hide my distress

No one should see

All should stay in me

In a hope of a confession

I've lost my passion

And I think too much

Of all things and such

Hide me in the darkness

My spleen, my sweetness

I shall take shelter

In your embrace my elder

And when i finally break free

How much is gonna have been lost of me

Dreams, hopes and everything shattered

Even without a fight it's coward

Lost in myself is the will to do

Because nothing was gonna bring me back I knew

This was IT

or that was it.

Quote

''during my study of rap music, I discovered taht people who react negatively to this music are often unable to decode it's lyrics, style and message.''

- Cheryl K. Eyes -

grasping coldness

Tears fall down my face

like an uncontrolable stream

Flooding all clarity

And the sense of logic with it

As I lay restless in my cold bed

I fix the ceiling

No warmth could make this go away

No light could make me see clear

Soul dancing with oh so dark idea

Head fighting to keep and stay strong

My forces are slowly diming

to a point where I don't feel them anymore

My cold, even in this heat

is stronger than a million flames

But that cold comes with a price

The one of perpetual darkness

Where's my path?

I've lost a part of me

That I can't find back

And from a distance I try to grasp

the power of music

The power of music over the soul is so great. A sad song will accompany you when you feel no one elses is there for you. A small riff, a quick sentence... only a few words written on a piece of paper can make the all difference.... make you feel like somebody somewhere understand or has understand you and yet still make you feel like it's a personnal thing. When I listen its to seek sorrow and in that sorrow i find music is the ultimate comfort... It's almost impossible how something so metaphysical can practicly cuddle you to make you feel better. Just like a distant friends that always find the right words to make you feel better, there's always the right tunes somewhere to make you feel better too. Music is my lover, like a lady that ask for nothing and gives everything... i feel almost bad too take so much from her... but at the same time so gratefull that she's there with me... wrapping me in her sweet lullaby and rocking my body like I was a kid again. It doesn't remove the cold but it does make it more likeable.

auto-spleen

Je flotte dans un irréel cauchemars

Qui me porte entre rêves et réalité

Modifiant mes gouts et mes envies

Changeant mon sourrire pour une larme

Dans l'espace d'un moment je sens le monde basculer

Et le temps se rétracter

Je sens que tout glisse

Que tout me pèse

Et instantanément je vols

Et lorsque ma passion n'est plus

Lorsque ce feu qui brule s'éteind

Que reste-t-il de moi?

Ne suis-je que passion

Ou y a t'il plus de substance derrière moi

Quand je sens le monde se dérobé sous mes pieds

Ou vont mes prières pieuse?

Les gouts et les saveurs qui s'altère

Comme pour fuir l'immobilisme

Je suis en paix avec moi meme

Peu etre un peu trop

M'ennuirais-je du combat de jadis?

Dans la pénombre de ma chambre

C'est dans le froid de mon ame que je me glisse

Ou est partie le printemps de mes espoirs?

Dans un délire immense j'écris

Je cherche les mots

Qui mettront un terme a mon spleen

Mais mon spleen n'a pas de terme il est en moi

Partie intégrante de ma chère et de mon sang

Ce dernier qui me prend a vouloir voir couler

Et la confusion règne... pourquoi j'aime cette noirceur

Je l'embrasse comme une amante que je n'ai jamais quitté

Comme si c'était la dernière densité qui me restait...

J'essuis mes gouttes salées

Puis recommence.

Not that strong.

From deep inside me

Is this what it's like to be free?

Numb in mind

Forbiden to find?

Redemption of a shattered dream

From wich I was getting all my steam

And now that the pieces have fallen to the ground

That the time won that round...

And oh this pain from the past

Oh so dark and so fast

It was in a distant memory

And as now come back to haunt me

I've been down that road before

And I don't know if I can take more

Not as strong

Not as strong...

...

Je m'en peu plus de ne pu me pouvoir de toi.

Fleur

La fleur qui éclos trop tôt

Brule de son odeur mes narines

Parfum de désir nouveau

Mon cerveau se perd dans les senteurs fines

Enivre moi pétales

Chavire moi de ton arômes sublime

Et lorsque je m'affale

Je goute ton nectar rarissime

wild cat

Pacing my cage like a trap cat

I scream in a silence oh so black

Watching liberty on the other side

I can't help but let my mind glide

And im furious and angry

Rage filling me up

Not leaving one drop empty

All world is lit up

Let me break away

Let me do it my way

I see my mate over there

Passion in one glare

I'm a wild animal

Passionate to the core

That statement is final

And by the end i'll want more

Don't try to tame me

I can only be free

And when i'm done trying

It's cuz i'll be dying

Billy Bragg - A New England

''I loved the words you wrote to me
But that was bloody yesterday
I can't survive on what you send
Every time you need a friend''

la nuit sans fin...

Une parole envolée sans attente

Et les yeux se figent

L'intimité au milieu de la foule

Une entreinte plus longue

Faux départ

Fausse impression

Basé sans trop savoir pourquoi

sur un moment trop court

Hypnotiser doucement

Comme une berceuse

regardant pour la premiere fois

voyons plus loins que les apparences

Confidences, paroles, gout de sucre

Ni trop chaud, ni trop froid

Vent de juin caressant nos peaux chastes

J'entrevois toi qui me voit moi

Et les lettres s'embalent

En parlant d'elle meme

Choc d'idée apréhendée

Ce transforme en une étrange complicité

Et avec les premiers rayons du soleils

Les yeux qui disent plus que les mots

Et ils s'aprennent

Ne pas dormir pour ne pas mourrir.

caramel et ébène

L'encre que je fixe
Qui me transperce l'âme
Et je me perd dans cette noirceur
Dans la beauté de cette brillance

Pendant longtemps je l'es vue
Sans jamais vraiment voir
Maintenant avec le recul
Je ne peux faire autrement

Le caramel m'ennivre
Les odeurs s'y mélange
Et dans ma mains le trésor
Que je ne croyais plus revoir

Lèvres chaste de mes jours lointain
Ma tête explose de souvenirs et de futur
Dans cette symphonie de confusion
Je me demande ce qui ce cache derrière...

Le soleil et la lune

La lune si noir et si froide

Dans la pénombre ce cache

Dans la noirceur ce protège

Et qui pourtant a besoin du soleil pour briller

Le soleil si lumineux et si chaud

Dans l'aveuglement ce cace

Dans l'éblouissement ce protège

Et pourtant qui a besoin de la lune pour ne pas bruler

Dans cette danse folle autour du monde

Pendant que l'un court

L'autre ce sauve

Et bientot les roles s'inversent

Maintenant, l'un face a l'autre

L'envi d'un gros big bang

Un absorbant l'autre

Créant dans un éclair un trou noir

La lune qui veut être soleil

La lune qui cherche la chaleur

Et qui dans cette lumière

Veut se perdre et s'engouffrer

Le soleil qui illumine

Le soleil qui veut son ombre

Et qui dans cette noirceur

Ce repose les yeux

Le souvenirs d'avant la course

Lorsqu'ils n'étaient qu'eux deux

Remonte des larmes de nostalgie

Mais aussi de bien être présent

Dans une fable

Dans une autre histoire

Ils finirent heureux

A jouer a cache cache.

take me

Bliss
i wanna be blissed
someone take my hand
Drag me down
Drag me up
i want to get lost
I wanna get brought back
i wanna see another light
or another color of darkness
I need you to need me
where are you ?
hands reaching for you
My breath taken
I'm speechless but my eyes screams
but you can't see
oh no you can't
I'll drown myself in that need of you
and with my life bleeding away
i will whisper your name with my last pulse
take me away oh please
the emptyness is a bliss
take me with you i want to breath you
where are you i need you
take me with you
drag me down
or drag me up
but oh please take me.

Evo.

l'attente légitime
les besoins intimes
Est-ce toi qui me prive
ou moi qui s'ennivre

Je vois ma vie
Je vois la tienne
Ne comprend pas ce qui coule dans mes veines
Cherche le sens de ma vie

Lorsque j'attend
Lorsque loin de toi
Je vois moi
avec le recul je vois mes moments

Ma tête cherche la relation
Mon coeur cherche tes attentes
Et je ne vois ni mes ambitions
Ni d'évolution lente

glimpse

A glimpse of paleness
Skins too white to be real
Like a drop of moon light
over that slenderness

I see you sticking out in the crowd
In the middle of all those people
You above all stand out
So luscious, so unreal

And in the middle of that sun
That part of night walking, smiling
You were just a blur in my day
That made it worthy

And tonight while I go to bed
there is a part of me that will meet you
And get to know you
And then just like you came, forget you

condamné

Le souvenir de ton sourire
S’éloigne de mon souvenir
Comme le remoue de la mer
Victime de notre laissé faire

Je vois au loin ce que nous fumes
Et mon amour intact que j’assume
Mais toi au large de moi
Est-ce que tu y crois?

Je vis seul dans l’espoir de notre futur
Vivant de ce que jadis nous furs
Mais je vois bien
Quel est notre destin

Pourquoi t’ais-je rencontré
Pourquoi nous sommes nous amouraché?
J’ai mal de ton absence
Et de ta facilité a la distance

J’apprend que je ne suis pas moi
Comment puis-je l’être sans toi
Je fais fausse route
Et mon esprit ce voute

J’ai les papillons des débuts
Dans la nervosité d’y avoir trop crue
Ce qui était l’excitation des premiers instants
Est maintenant celle de la crainte des derniers moments

J’en lise dans cette reflexion
Me confond en erreur et trahis ma passion
Je suis condamné a t’aimer
Et condamné a etre blessé.

Dashboard Confesionnal - A plain Morning

It's yet to be determined,
but the air is thick,
and my hope is feeling worn.
I'm missing home,
and I'm glad you're not a part of this,
there's parts of me that will be missed.
And the phone is always dead to me,
so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping
and it feels like.

It's colder than it ought to be in March
and I still got a day or two ahead of me
till I'll be heading home,
into your arms again.
And the people here are asking after you.
It doesn't make it easier.
It doesn't make it easier to be away.(to be away)

I'd like to hire a plane.(a plane)
I'd see you in the morning, (morning)
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again. (I'm coming home again)
Coming home again. (again)
Coming home again. (again)
When the day is fresh,
I'm coming home again.(I'm coming home again)

But it's warmer where you're waiting.
It feels more like July.
There's pillows in their cases,
and one of those is mine.
And you wrote the words "I love you",
and sprayed it with perfume.
It's better than the fire is
to heat this lonely room.
It's warmer where you're waiting
It feels more like July.
It feels more like July.

It's yet to be determined,
but the air is thick,
and my hope is feeling worn.
I'm missing home,
and I'm glad you're not a part of this,
there's parts of me that will be missed.
And the phone is always dead to me,
so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping
and it feels like.

It's colder than it ought to be in March
and I still got a day or two ahead of me
till I'll be heading home,
into your arms again.
And the people here are asking after you.
It doesn't make it easier. (easier)
It doesn't make it easier to be away.(to be away)

I'd like to hire a plane.(a plane)
I'd see you in the morning, (morning)
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again. (I'm coming home again)
Coming home again. (again)
Coming home again. (again)
When the day is fresh,
I'm coming home again.(I'm coming home again)

Love is a bliss

Love can hurt so much. It's a wonderful thing don't get me wrong. But every time I see people posting things like the picture here, it breaks me. Some moments can break you, some can lift you but when they break you it's such a hard step to pass. It's the only thing I know that can lower your self esteem and make it all your fault when a day before it was doing the complete opposite.

Love is a bliss
Love is a pain
Love is a kiss
Love is all this.

spinning

Spinning in this life
When I'd only wish I could stop
Spinning to forget I can't stop
If I do I hurt

Light, darkness
Like an endless reaction
From where I want to kiss you
And all I want is to stop and kiss you

Secrets over secrets
I can't share what I want
Secrets over secrets
Where are you to be one

I need you to be there
But you can't
And I can't
So we spin to forget

But when the tornado finally stop
I hope we will meet
Cuddle and stay immobile
to appreciate the world

Empty

Flesh against flesh
Dream so vivid
Waking up hurt
Having everything snapped away

Soul trying to find the mate
The warmth such utopia
So permanent cold it is
And no more peace of mind

The head thinking so much
Pain from stopping
Numbness from trying
Indifference in silence

Mind flooded with fears
Fears emerging from thought
thought from needs
and needs from desire

Is there an end to that mumbling
taking so much space
taking so much energy
Leaving me empty.

sexual era

What is it with sexy?
What is it with sex in general?
Where did we lost the sweetness of love
For the kinkyness of horny...

How did the warm exchange of two skins
Became so rough, so raw
For thousands of sexual glorification
I'm trying to find one proximity one

Pictures of friendship
Now the sexy look
Here the cleavage
But where's the sweetness?

In an era where hypersexual is master
I feel lost and without home
Like reaching from an era too far away
It's like I don't belong

Sex, how come something so good
Got reduce to an exchange of fluid
Where did it lost the exchange of soul
And the proximity of true and honnest intention...

Disapointed... That's all I can think of now.

it's been so long

It's been so long
Since you've hold me
I'm afraid I don't remember
How good it must feel

It's been so long
Since you're last kiss
That I'm scared I forgot
The warmth in those lips

It's been so long
Since we've shared anything
That I'm wondering
What we shared at all

I feel the distance growing
Both physically and mentally
Where do we stand
I know you more from others than from myself.

pesant silence

Silence pesant
Celui du moment non dit
Celui de la peur
Ce silence qui tue la vérité

La larme qui coule
Comme le son du glas
Puisque les mots
Ne suffisent plus

La fin qui est déjà derrière
Pourtant toujours muet
A quoi bon parlé?
A quoi bon expliqué?

Les yeux remplis de douleurs
La voix couper par les pleurs
Et l'immense vide au cœur
Ce froid qui t'emplis ma soeur

pourquoi, comment et quand?
Bouteille à la mer
Les réponses qui ne viendront pas
Et le temps qui ne règlera pas

growing up

Reach out
Break the gap
This solitude
Shouldn't exist

From generations
Younger and older
We have too much too learn
To isolate ourself like that

Break that distance
Nothing good comes from it
The young will show you passion
The elder will show you wisdom

And in the moment of connection
There might be a way
To grow in it
And to make grow

It's easy to close yourself to your reality
But your's is only your's
Opening to the others
Will bring you what is missing

Learn to live
By not hiding death
The process ignored
Will only bring problems.

Symphonie d'une vie.

Je fluctus le tempo de ma vie
Dans l'attente du bpm qui me fera battre
en attente du rythme qui me fera vibrer
C'est comme un disque que le son est fermé

Je tape du pieds avec impatience
Puisque la musique n'est pas une science
L'amour est une musique
À laquelle la logique, ne répond pas

j'invente sur ma propre porté
colle les notes sans pensée
je cherche une symphonie
mais il me manque les sons

Lire une partition
Est ce douté de la beauté qui s'y cache
Mais rien ne vaut
L'écoute bat l'écrit, toujours...

Alors en attendant mon orchestre
Je lis et imagine
L'opéra de ma futur vie
Parce que faute d'entendre, je lis.

Je suis anxieux au concert
Le plus long, le plus beau
Nerveux que l'orchestre ne se présente pas
Que le concert soit annulé.

Feather of Hapiness

Feather of hapiness
So light
Easily it goes away
So soft, easy to forget

Clouds above my heads
Of infinite heaviness
And the rain crashing down
Cutting the dance

And if it's too windy
It fly away from me
And what if it's love
What if all my hopes are in it

Should I let it go
Let it get wet?
Will I ever dance with it?
Or should I just forget it?

What is it?

What is it so hard to get?
The only bed that is mine
Can only be the one your in
For nowhere else can I sleep.

What's unclear?
The only country that i'm a citizen of
Is your body
Because nowhere else can I feel home.

What more could I say or do?
That the only words that counts
Comes from your lips
For I am deaf to all others.

What is it that I can explain?
The only lights I see
Are from your chocolate eyes
For without them i'm blind.

Let me breath
Easy, slowly
For without you
There is no life.

Hurt eternity

This wait that sucks out all my energy
My life everyday feel more and more empty
And for what do I fight
for a hope, for a light?

Is there anything to hope for
Or will I end up alone on the floor
Is there any passion left in me
Is there enough forgiveness to let it free

When the day is raising
Finally the sleep is catching
Like I can't sleep without her
But I can't bare a day with that anchor

From the bed to the day
I feel this is my way
Of not giving up
by beating myself up

And it will hurt
If it end up being just a flirt
But it will change me
if it's for eternity.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

- Neil Gaiman -

quote

“Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping... waiting... and though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead.”

-Joss Whedon-

citation

''Il existe des femmes qui ne veulent accepter que la portion d'amour qui n'engage a rien.''

Jacques Lamarche.

Where is the smile

When the leaf will bloom
Will my heart follow
While all the city is getting warmer
My soul is getting colder

From what I understand summer is coming
But in me I feel like fall is storming
Where is it that i've turned wrong?
Where is it that I didn't get my summer?

Life will start flowing everywhere
And I will be blind
To mine that is so far away
Is it any use to pray?

Come back to me
Since you've been gone the sun don't shy
The moon doesn't light
And my heart doesn't smile.

black hole

My sleep
Gone with my smile
And with them
An happy tought

troubled mind
make hard day
for those who pray
to cheat the apocalypse

and as my sun is gone
a earth with no moon
i revolve around nothing
is that the big bang?

Ce qui a pignon sur rue.

Des larmes lourdes
J'en est tellement versé
Que je ne sais plus compté
Et pourtant tu restes sourde

Je perds mon temps
Pour ne pas perdre mon sang
Je bois mes heures
Pour ne pas sombré dans le malheur

Et coule, coule encore
Sang, larmes et fort
Je ne regardes plus
Puisque je ne sens plus

Les douleurs
Confirme mes peurs
Presse mes doutes
Sous le poids qui me voute

Et toutes les attaques que j'ai défendue
Et tout sa parce que je t'ai crue
Ais-je encore raison de te croire
Toi qui m'enlève tant d'espoir

J'engloutis mon mal
Sous mon sourrire matinal
Mais bien au froid le soir
Il n'y a que moi qui broie du noir

Blanche nuit
Sommeil qui me fuit
Les rêves qui n'en sont plus
Les cauchemars on pignon sur rue

Le passé qui pardonne

Ce pardon soudain
Sous le couvert de l'aveu
Dans un moment de réconciliation
Mes espérances

Comme un cadeau
Une partie de moi qui me revient enfin
Après tout ce temps
J'ai pensé ne plus la revoir

Le liens toujours aussi inexplicable
Le bien-être toujours aussi présent
Cette entité apaisante
Emplie de douceur et de calme

Les paroles comme jadis
Facilement sans friction
Mon honneur pardonné
Et mes idéaux réconcilié

Je te vois toi que je ne vois pas
Et les merci qui me restent dans la gorge
Puisque ce mot seul ne suffit
Après tout ce que tu m'as appris

Les mots de confidences
Enfin l'admiration exprimé
je suis plus en paix
Que je ne l'étais hier.

port d'attache

J'ai la vague a mon ame fletrie
Je sens le sol ce derobe sous mes pieds
Le temps m'emporte dans la penombre de l'attente
Et toi, ma lumiere toujours plus loin.

Dans le tunnel obscur d'un silence
Tapisser d'une couche de tristesse
Je navigue seul sans boussole
Et sans chemin

Mon port d'attache
Perdue dans les abyss
A quoi bon naviguer
Quand I'll n'y a plus nul part ou alle

fugitive

And when sharing was our goal
We made sure our need were safe
And now deprive
I'm hollowing my life

Every touch is a dream
Every dream is pain
And when I wake up
It's with tears in my eyes

There is this part of me
That's still want to be free
And there's this part of you
Hell, is what it's putting me trough

My peace of mind
Long gone with the smile
And my sleep
Fugitive to my life

Tracking down all three of them
I fail to recover any
And when time as passed
Will I still fear what i've lost?

blooming flower

While I know your blooming away
I perish away
And you get back all of your color
Me falling down my darkness again

And this shine that your trying to get back
I feel like it's cut out of my own colors
A peak of jealousy maybe
or a desperate attempt not to die away

like any flower, i've been looked at
but will be tossed away once the beauty as faded
and I wish I was a dry one
that you keep in a book as a memory

In the fog of a tear blind sight
Darkness replaced by shadow and twisted form
every glimpse is a painful reminder
that in the end you are not here

what's hard.

The hard part use to be
to put one idea in front of another
then find another one
go foward and keep my hope

at one point it became
put one kiss on front of another
then close my eyes
then repair my broken heart

not too long ago it was
put one step in front of another
then take a breathing
then keep going somewhere

now it's this
put one breath in front of the other one
then find a reason to gasp again
and hold on to it.

Le problème avec le dessert

Le problème c'est le dessert. Dans chaque repas digne de ce nom il y a une entrée. L'entrée est nécessaire c'est pour ce mettre en appétit. Pour permettre aux papilles de se dégourdir et d'apprécier le repas qui suivra. Certains préfère les entrées petites, d'autres les entrées chaude et d'autre les entrées froides. Dans mon cas, je préfère les entrées qui sont plus a l'italienne; Anti-pasti! Pour ceux qui ne savent pas ce qu'est une anti-pasti c'est le genre de petites entrées diverses toute dans la même assiettes. C'est très diversifié, plusieurs style, plusieurs saveurs toute très différentes les unes que les autres et toutes dans le but de mettre en relief les saveurs multiple. Certains passeront leurs vie a mangé que des entrées en disant que c'est la meilleure partie du repas, pas moi. Pour moi l'entrée est le but du repas principale plus mature, plus prêt, plus consistant, celui pour lequel on sort manger.

Après l'entrée il y a bien sur une pause. La pause elle aussi importante puisqu'elle permet après un ''réchauffement'' des papilles, de permettre une certaine relaxation avant l'explosion totale. Si on sait choisir parfois même l'orgasme totale. On peut carrément choisir le type d'orgasme. Le problème avec le dessert c'est qu'il est après la meilleure partie du repas. C'est le sucre, les choix, l'instantané. La gratification du palais par le gout extrême rapide et éphémère. La preuve; on choisi toujours un restaurant parce qu'on se rappelle du repas principale jamais pour le dessert qui va le suivre. Certes quelques fois on ne va que pour le dessert mais très rarement allons-nous a un restaurant pour un repas complet en prévision du dessert. Dans les meilleurs cas on s'en souvient, dans les pires il ne cherche qu'a cacher le gout du repas principal. Un dessert c'est une distraction du vrai plaisir de mangé celui qui est en milieu de repas celui qui est long et délicieux remplis de délicatesse et de saveurs subtiles, celui qui faut prendre le temps de dégusté. Alors quand le repas arrivent, moi je ne regarde jamais les desserts, je ne me garde jamais de place pour les déserts je ne fais que contempler le menu et je regarde les autres oubliant déjà les saveurs qu'ils oublient trop occupées a regarder dans le futur de leurs repas.

Je vois dans le repas une forme de contraction et chaque bouché du repas principale apporte du plaisir le tout est de savoir gardé son attention sur celui-ci.

Ici le repas; c'est la vie
Les papilles; la façon d'aimé
Les services; les femmes qui sont dans celles-ci
Le repas principal; LA femme de sa vie
Le désert; l'attrait du nouveau une fois qu'on a trouvé la bonne


Ici la métaphore du repas et je choisis;

- Monsieur prendrez-vous un dessert?
- Non merci. Je ne veux pas ruiner mes papilles.

inadéquat

Je suis inadéquat
Jamais assé
Jamais prouvé
Je tombe toujours a plat

Malgré les essais
Malgré cette quête de perfection
Malgré toutes mes intentions
Rien ne fait

Je prend la plume
Je lache le coeur
Je combat la rancoeur
Je reprend la plume

Je me bat contre toute cette idée
Que la passion ne peu durée
Qu'il faut se controlé
Mais mon coeur a moi est un guerrier

Et je ne controle pas
Ce que je ne suis pas
Mais je peux toujours vouloir
Entretenir l'espoir

Dans ma bataille solitaire
Ma raison dur comme du fer
Mes mon coeurs comme un talon d'achille
Et je me meurs tranquille

Et même dans la routine du quotidien
J'y vois l'espoir du bien
Si la passion est incorporé
Je considererais avoir gagné

Brisé la solitude

- Tu voudrais pas avoir un chien, me semble que sa briserais ta solitude.
- Pourquoi je voudrais brisé sa?
- Je sais pas, pour être moin seul?
- Non
- Ah bon!

J'ai quitté

J'ai quitté une ville pour me perdre dans une autre. À la maniere d'un objet perdue que l'on empile dans une boite pêle mêle sans vraiment croire qu'il sera trouvé. Je me suis isolé dans la masse pour camoufler la solitude. Une histoire d'amour avec une ville trop grosse pour moi, trop grande pour elle même et trop petite pour moi en même temps. Quand les gens se croisent dans la rue, quand il inter-agisse ensemble sans vraiment porté attention; parcequ'il s'agit d'un grand ballet chorégraphié qui n'a pas vraiment de solo. Personne ne connait vraiment personne. La douleur individuel perdue dans l'anesthésie de la masse. Je crois que je me suis perdue pour mieux me retrouvé, comme l'objet dans cette boite qui croit etre trouvé, mais qui au fond de lui sait qu,il y est pour resté. J'aurai choisi l'impensable puisque je ne pourrai pensé que lorsqu'il n'y aura plus rien. Pendant que je croise tout ces pietons qui vont nul part je me sens figé dans mon mouvement. Le coeur serré, plus que d'habitude et dans ma réflexion interrimpu je m'écroule en pleine rue, anonyme au milieu de la masse movible.

Radiohead - Creep

When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again...
She's running out
she run, run, run, runs...
runs...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

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L'innévitable comme une flèche
Lancé furtivement le mot me transperce
Le doute que je sens de loins
Que je connais puisqu'il fut si souvent mien

J'y vois l'incertitude
L'auto conviction
comme exécution
et les je t'aime comme lassitude

j'ai froid
J'ai mal
je me sens sale
pourquoi?

Et je veux pouvoir résisté
A cette destiné
Qui me condamne a la douleur
Et me plonge dans la noirceur

Ce temps qui passe
qui fait me tue tranquillement
l'amour don tu es lasse
moi me tue subtilement

passion ou es-tu?
je te vois, mais elle ne te discerne plus
je suis le résultat de ma conséquence
et me fait exécuté ma propre sentence

éclair du passé

Éclair du passé
C'est presque instantané
Le temps est gelé
une fraction de seconde figé

et je vois de loin
ce don j'ai pris soin
une pointe de fierté
rejoint mes pensées

une chaleur intense
devant cette nouvelle prestance
un sourire radieux
qui irradie de tes yeux

bête en cage

En-cagé comme un tigre au zoo
J'me suis trop trop battu contre les barreaux
Ils m'ont mis K.O.
Dans ma tête c'est le chaos

Mes sentiments qui veulent sortir
Qui de l'intérieur me déchire
Pendant que tout mon être tire
La pression qui bloquent mes respirent

Flèches anesthésiante
transperce ma peau, la bruyante
Hurle en silence d'une rage fumante
D'encore sentir qu'ils me mentent

Et je dors empoisonné
Dans un sommeil artificialisé
mes rêves trop violenté
pour pouvoir m'être reposé

Je bondis au milieu de mon enclos
seul et froid au centre du cachot
a l'extérieur j'entends; Ah comme il est beau
A l'intérieur je ne vois que laideur et sanglot

Light

From a desperate time
I've been swooped from under
Like a wind taking me
me; the sailboat

I've been stalled all this time
now finally moving
towards maybe hapiness?
Who knows, but the ride is good

When looking back on my past
All is lost in a fog of doubt
but when looking foward
I see, finally, light and ... future?

carefull

The sun fall in a lake of sorrow
Where is it that I found light again?
I can't remember where or when
Where is all the warmth been

Like a handfull of snow
In your barehand will melt
liquify in water
And what you were holding gone.

Time like a nemesis
Present like a unexsitant time
Always too late
Always too fast

Is there anything i can do
That will make it stop
That change that always happen
Where you stop being carefull.

A life like a facebook page.

A life like a facebook page. How many person you know had a problem with the ''friends'' in facebook? How many people were bitching about how impersonnal it was, how many time it took from their so called real life and how it was just articifial.

Well here's my life like a facebook critic. For all those humans that lives their life like a facebook page. What I mean by that is they essentially make a spider web of connection that they do call friends. Occasionally going on a drink with this one, going at the movie with this other one etc... Just like those 500 friends you don't know on your social network page all those persons you claim you know in real life are in the same boat. When you feel like you know them ask yourself why? Because you see them in real? Knowing is about truth, trust and conversations. Saying you have a lot of friends in life just because you know a lot of people has for me the same amount of value as a facebook friend. In all that count the number you can really count on when you trully need it, when it's not easy to be there for you when it's not just being there for 5 min. or for a day but when you have a long and painfull run to go before being okay.

Being social, that's why those network exist but being friends, true friends? It can be find only in their connection to other and no a drink is not a connection.

Hotage

J'ai le vague a l'ame
Ne partira-t-il donc jamais?
Est-ce moi ou est-ce elles?
Comment dire cette solitude qui s'installe

D'un plaisir pur
Jusqu'au zénith de l'amour
En descandant par le froid du doute
Et l'absence de connexion

Quand la vie me pousse
Je sens le vide sous mes pieds
J'ai peur de tomber
Et de ne plus me relever

Des mots comme des coups de couteau
Existe-t-il quelque part
L'onguant qui me guérira
De mon spleen grandissant

Je vois la nuit arriver avec un soupir de soulagement
Le jour se levé et avec lui mes apréhension
Les secondes passé comme un hotage séquestré
et mon coeur pret a exploser

Si j'ai raison j'ai tord
Et avoir tord me donne raison
Spirale irréversible
Comment puis-je finir par me/la convaincre

missing

The time fly by
Never so slow
As I watch fall the snow
by the empty seat that I stand bye

I see your smile in a distant city
But your eyes I can't see
and in that glass window
you can't see my soul is sorrow

I miss you
For me it's a first
that emptyness hitting me like a burst
and this lone wolf of mine don't wanna go trough

And you make me feel
like i've never feel
Everything is brand new
yuo made me again grew

Simple and passionate
Trusty and insecure
It's no suprise you made it
No wonder our love made me sure