vendredi, décembre 03, 2010

Before I left

I was in a room full of emptiness, when I had memories of what once was. Living in a lie is no way to live at all. When I wake up I swore I would remember this. Letting my mind wonder to what conclusion I once reached, I realised I already knew all this, just momentarily forgot it. In order to respect love I had to respect myself... where did I lost this? Where did it became so abstract to me that I forgot about it?

Now i remember, why I once left to come back more balanced, more aware, more focused... And I remember the name I use to whisper in my mind during that time. There it is I remember! I've once waited so long for somebody that I thought the day would never come, why is it so hard now to wait for something i've desired for so long? Desired !?!? Forget it, long for! There's hope in the sky, like always, it's just a mather of looking up instead of looking at the ground. My balance so different then others... i cannot use hapiness as a way to balance myself, i can only use beauty, passion and absolute to feel balance. My mind work in absolute therefore to be balance I have to be able to absolutly feel and not feel at the same time.

I remember thinking why was I bothering? I remember thinking that i already knew the answer even if the answer wasn't available... But could it be that I wasn't ready to deal with the answer in itself? I remember a look so pure I could bait in it! I remember beeing so revolted against so many things and angry at so many people, and then that look that changed it all... Closing my eyes i can still remember the ''click'' in my mind where I understood that sweetness should always prevail over anger, where bliss was a state of consciousness not a state of blind anger or numbness.

I'll see where this is all going... maybe, maybe not... I wish / not.

Fall from heaven

Touching heaven
In the cold dark night
Memories of so much light
I'm smitten

While angels keep flying above
Forsaken in those sacred land
My soul can't make amend
Not enough was love

My fall back to reality
When your hand left mine
Broke all the bones in my spine
Can't manage to be happy

Everything reminiscent of you
I gave you all I could in me
Also all I had in me
And now there's nothing I can do

jeudi, décembre 02, 2010


I gave you my heart
I had your nights
I gave you a life
I had a week

When i poured my soul into us
I received a kiss
When I made a life with you
I received doubts

What are your best memories
Were the beginning of our life
In the end the realisation struck me;
I dreamed all this, nothing else then a glorified rebound.

And even then I cannot help
To go back if I was asked too
And i hate myself for wanting you
Wanting so bad the pain you gave me

Where is my past pride?
You left with it!
Where is my joy?
It left when you told me i wasn't enough

I'd like to hate you so bad
But I just can't bring it in me
I have put already too much
Let me be me again...

mardi, novembre 30, 2010

premier skit...

Souvenirs d'un moment déjà pas si lointain
Les regards ce perdent comme jadis
Je crois voir au loin ce que j'ai déjà vue
Et saisi de nouveau par autant de beauté

J'ai rêvé longtemps
Des jours durant
Lorsque tout a coup j'aurais ce moment
Et remercie aujourd'hui l'émotion qui me prend

Dans un naturel déconcertant
J'ai sentie encore une fois le temps
Se figé et chauffer mon sang
Et sentir l'énergie me réchauffant.