I wish I could write you a book a day
Even then I don't think it would be enough
To show you just how much your my dream on a silver tray
And just how bad our time away is rough

From every details
To your all entity
I miss our fairy tales
And our love, so free

These words that I write
In hope you'll understand
That nothing is right
If by your side I don't stand.

Voyager par l'esprit

J'ai voyagé partout
J'ai tout vu ce que la terre avait a offrir
Gouté les meilleurs vins
Mangé les meilleurs plats

Mais rien ne m'a transporté comme tes caresses
J'ai vraiment vu le plus beau de la terre dans tes yeux
Tes lèvres valent tout les arômes
Tes mains valents toutes les saveurs

dernier soupir

Et le silence inquiétant
Qui pèse sur nous
dans la pénombre de nos non-dits
je vois nos âmes mourrir

Et moi qui te veux tant!
Te sauvé au moins sinon t'aimé
Comment faire pour te rescapé
de ce que toi même tu t'inflige

Dans ma prose je vois la vérité
que dans ma vie j'essais de cacher
Et j'essais encore en vain de t'aimé
Toi ma douce dulcinée

Et mes promesses qui pèse
Et mes désirs qui m'alourdisse
Je vois en moi l'échec
d'être ce que j'ai toujours voulu

Je mourrai peu être
Toujours cette question en tête
Quel sera le nom
qui glissera de mes lèvres dans mon dernier soupir?

variation of the spleen (again)

This spleen even in hapiness that never leave me
Forever, I guess, it will be part of me
This state of mind like a light rain at night
Like this beautifull paint with something not right

Ain't it funny that joy can be found in tears
That sometimes, the best way to smile is being stoic
From that deep place where no light ever shine
The biggest ray of sun can emane

Living body in a world not mine
For a head living in a time not now
Heart trapped in between those two
How can you ever feel not blue

Big high's for big low's
No middle for it's worthless
Being stable is not for me
I am born to be extreme

Quiet night of sleepless tought
Loud day's of sleeping conscience
I live in my head
In this spleen that make me beat

Judging

It come easy and without premiditation. It's a big trait of our society, judging everything and anything just for the sake of it, for the sake of talking. I know half of the time people mean well but what is trully hapenning in their mind isn't something good. Missing facts, missing circumstances and also missing neutrality judgement lead to tension. Inevitable all the time for it's the nature of conflict and conflict are created by different judgement. Neutrality is an utopia i'll admit that, does it mean that we shouldn't try to achieve it? I think that with knowing that it's an utopia we as a human race are force (due to our social model) to judge, but why is it so glorious to judge without appeal, so brutally and so irreversibly. I don't get what's so glorious about being sure because let's face it being sure of your judgement means only that your trying to convince yourself. ''She's a bitch, he's an asshole, she's so stupid and he is so arrogant'' No mather what you think of somebody there is always reasons (not excuses) for their behavior. That doesn't you should get along with those people it just mean that not because you don't get along they should fall automatically in the ''insult'' category.

Neutrality is an utopia that we should all try to reach because in the end it's the only way to give the right to the justice.

Imagine

Agressive!

Where does this come from? Why so much violence, in word in gesture. How come these clashes of personality... could it be possible that in that madness of society we forgot something. Is that possible that all the way around we were wrong about our own nature. I keep hearing the human is a social creature, but is it really? Or are we simply too far down the line to remember any other way?

Agressivness the way people fight each other over words, work, politics, religion... If we had to invent all those rules to live together how would it be without the rules and the organization, not talking about anarchy but simply talking about maybe not be so dependent on each other. Are we really define by what surrounding us or are we just adapting to it to a point where the person we become has nothing to do with the person we could have or would have been in the beginnning. When you look back at things maybe this wasn't the best we could have done.

What's the use of this thinking? Far from me the idea of changing it from the core but maybe by understanding what we were meant to be we can figure out a way to bring the anger level down a little... you know just a little more soft, sweet and happy... No yelling, no anger, no fight... ''Imagine'' said the other guy!

Stress and people.

Where to start? In this movemented life I feel like everybody is just trying to reach stability. Just like a sailor who loves the sea for the same reason he hates the storm. While i feel the stress slowly surrounding me, I feel the old habit of a exhausted reaction. When is it you become free of mind in life? What is it that make everybody care about little things. Of course things are different for everybody, I mean something very unimportant for someone can be the end of the world for another, but why? What is it that make people so involve emotionally in stuff they don't control and make them completly oblivious to what they can actually have an impact on or make a difference for. If a wall is blocking your way banging on it won't change the fact that you are block, going around it or if you can't plainly get the equipment to go true it will have an impact. I see life the same way, sometimes I see people banging their head on problem that cannot be solved, not because there is no solution but because the solution is just not thinking about it but going around it. I guess that's why I claim I'm a very relaxed person (hopefully). With the flaws that go with it I never see what the big deal is about anything. For me everything in your way is just a new path and I trully beleive new path are something to be gratefull for and not pissed about. Lessons we learned never come from the expected but from the unexpected and I guess I just like to learn more than others, or I accept that to learn I have to be put out of my way, out of a comfort zone. I don't know...

percute

toujours sur moi cette pression
celle d'une malsaine competition
faut toujours performer
si on veut s'illustre

avec le sourrire
sans jamais s'en tarrir
le devoir d'atteindre les honneurs
seulements en etant plus en hauteur

et pendant que mon corps s'execute
ma conscience dans ma tete percute
l'esprit attirer vers dautres horizons
mais je perd la raison...

remedy to a spleen

"J'apercevais encorela beaute du monde - meme au plus fort de ma detresse, l'ultime chatiment me fut epargner -, mais je me sentais socialement inadequat."

les falsificateurs - antoine bello

remedy to a spleen

what would i not give for this
that ideal of a life i once created in my head
what wouldnt i give for a moment in it
for once not being a dream but a reality

the softness in human
understanding peace and love
in all word and all gesture
were sadness would be a far concept

i for that would give up my life
a country worth fighting for
a ideal bigger than life
universal love... imagine.

remedy to a spleen

from the deepest waves of my soul
i feel the time consuming me
am i loosing it?
or making the most of it?

my heart and my head forever fighting
making of my body this war field
my energy is leaving me
and my drive is slowing down

when all will be said and done
what will be left of those two
am i gonna have something to carry on
or will i fade like everybody else

when my faith is shaken
its my all body that collapse
and while it crumble
this doubt that never end.

just let me sleep in your embrace
rest my head on ur body
and just pass away in this perfect moment
i want this more than anything

be my country
in this safe spot i dont feel pain
like a drug paralyze the pain
your kiss paralyze my spleen

dark past

From a dark part inside of me
I still feel sadness
But for the firs time
It's about the past, not the future

Where that spleen is coming from
Forever will haunt me
But I know in the end it worth it
Because it brought me to you

Un sourrire

Dans un bouquet de roses noir
J'y mettrai une rouge
Pied de nez a la décadence
Affront à la décrépitude

Cette fleur vivante
Parmis ses autres mortes
C'est toi qui me porte
De ton énergie pimpante

J'aurai les heures
J'aurai la vie
Mais je n'aurai rien
Si tu t'enfuis

Dans mes instants de noirceur
Un rayon de lumière
C'est ton sourrire
Qui berce mes pleures.

walking

walking down the streets
perfect match in the paste of our feets
looking at you from a close distance
just walking you look like you dance

Oh and this feeling so intense
It make me loose all my sense
At the center of the earth
You're still what make beat my heart

morning gasp

I dream of lustful morning
Where our skin merge in peace
Where shiver become our morning routine
And where kisses replace the sun

I have fantasy about your love
Meeting mine under the covers
And unite in a gasp
To reach untouchable height

I have desire for your breast
The taste so perfect on the tip of my tongue
The warmth so complete
In the palm of my hand

Expectation of absolute
Not being utopic anymore
And everything we’ve learn
Shattered in our sweet embrace

Vision of your back
Hauting my mind
Like the perfect silouhette
Of all my desire

Memories of your buttock
So smooth and sexy
Where I wanna loose myself
And all that is reason

Sensuality meeting love
The impossible meeting
Things I’ve tought impossible
In you do exist

The perfect alliance
Where the perfect soul
See the perfect mind
And share the perfect body

I’m so yours...

from the past

When everything will fall into place
I'll still be looking at your face
From the deepest corner of my soul
I see an angel so beautifull

This love from the past
So alive when it blast
Where were you all this time
You, who alway's was mine

I'll kneel down to the church of your beauty
Waiting for us to be
Seeing in your eyes the truth
You are my absolute.

puzzle

Love is like a 2 pieces puzzle who come in a 7.5 billions pieces box. You have to find the only 2 pieces that work together in the box.

light

when the night fall on me
it's so dark i can't see
and no mather how much light
nothing is close to your sight

thought.

That fire that forever been burning inside of me
What keep me up at night, yes, but indeed make me breath in the day
The pain and the energy it provide me
For a short instant having the flame be teased
Having the heat getting fueled.
Where is this going I don't know but it provide me with new strenght.

coyote ugly

whats your story?
What got you behind that counter
What made you got there
Whats the story of that beauty?

That pure beauty
Not so pure anymore
How come you sold your's
What for?

I see you giving acess
to that body of yours
but I can't understand why
your so numb to it

little stranger
Thanks for sharing
But no that i'll be sad
what have you done with your life?

i'll move along with my life
i'll remember you as a first
but will inside pray for you
so you can have better than this.

les états

Je voudrais cette chaleur
D'un éclairage tamisé,
quelques chandelles allumés
des mains croisé dans la noirceur

le silence des respirations
nos deux parfums s'entremelant
dans un ballets élégant
nos deux rythmes a l'unissons

Froid d'une absence inutile
Loin de ton réconfort
Loin, là ou j'ai eu tord
Pour prouver le futile

Je perd mon temps
Je m'oubli dans ses pays lointain
Ou tout me rapelle ton teint
Et ou tes yeux sont absent

Je cherche ce que je sais déjà
Je vais au loins
Là ou je suis moins
Brulé l'essence de mon état.
Loin de tes bras

moment de ''blues''

Les yeux remplie d'eau salé
Je regarde le monde a travers se voile brouillé
Je sens le regard des autres s'alourdir
Sur la disparition soudaine de mes sourrires

Moi, je ne suis plus moi
Je suis le regard d'une autre fois
Masqué derrière le brouillard profond
D'une peine et d'un silence qui en dit long

le coeur serré d'une émotions subite
Je sens ma vie qui passe trop vite
dans les heures ou je pleures
pourtant je sens la peur

la nostalgie qui m'envahie
comme un poison qui ma trahis
le gout de l'encre sécher
de parole trop répété

Ò je voudrais tant
Combattre le temps
préserver ma passion
pour l'ultime réunion

Je me sens martyr
Alors que je suis sensé rire
Mais pourquoi cette blessure
qui me rend la vie si dure

Chaque solitude
Moment de certitude
que mes idéaux sont frappé
et que mes ailes sont coupé

pourtant je crois
je ne sais plus trop bien en quoi
mais je garde l'espoir
d'un jour me r'avoir

second place

In a life where time is money

Where money is life

Where success define individual

And individual are define by success

From the deepest country

To the finest one

All are a part

Of this rating scale

Prisoner of this existence

Where you can’t make to much perfect

But where one mistake can destroy

Everything you did before

What mathers is being champion

No place for the second

Even less place for loosers

History remember only the winners

But what about the knowledge lost

What about those who made it

But never had recognition

What are we loosing?

distant smell

A distant rose smell
From a souvenirs far away
Lost behind all the time
Lost behind all the hurt

I can remember the sweetness
Like a unclear memory
The taste of it
It my confused mouth

When was it the last time
That I could still like this
Still smell the beauty
Still kiss it tenderly

I feel lost
I feel out of myself
I feel like im missing something
I am...

Ballet Blanc

Souvenir de cette première neige
De flocons immenses
Caressant tes cheveux
De tout le poids de notre non dit

De ses désirs pressant
Et innasouvie,
De ses paroles en l'air
Qui voulait tout dire sur fond de blague

Nos deux âmes se réfugiant
Dans la chaleur nouvelle de l'autre
Ce nouveau feu réconfortant
Ou malgré le risque nous étions en sureté

Les yeux levé au ciel
Regardant ses millions de danseurs
Tout de blanc vetue
Nous caressant au passage

Mes mains voulant immité les flocons
Mes envies de me jeté a toi
Nos morales adolescente
Et le temps qui nous fuyait

Souvenirs marquant, brulant
Moment comme une ritournelle
Encore et encore dans ma tête
Je vois ce soir ou sans le savoir... tu m'auras sauvé.

cold night

For there is no full moon
Where can I get my energy
Where is my spirit coming from?
But a promess of tomorrow night
That never really comes

The time pass
But the feeling stays
Of memorable nights
And endless hope
Where sharing was in silence

No words
No sound
Only touch
Lips
And carefull bound

Distant symphonie
Of a ballet we created
On those cold night of winter
Far far away in our own world
where none was invited

missing it.

Le monde parallèle.

Quand le soleil brille au loin dans cette vie que je ne vois pas
Je vois au lieu les sourrires passé près de moi.
Quand le lueur du jours réchauffre ses coeurs étrangés
Je vois la chaleur émané de leurs corps

Mais moi, o moi, dans mon petit moi
Quand ce même soleil éclaire je pleures
Quand cette chaleurs réchauffe
Je gèle toujours

Je suis parallèle a moi même
Parallèle a cette réalité qui semble être la mienne
Mais ma mains est sec
Mais mon coeur est lourd

J'irais chercher le jour dans la noirceur de la nuit
Dans une confidence froide et glacé
Je trouverai la chaleur de mon coeur
Et partirai vogué moi aussi vers l'essentiel

Les bras en croix dans mon grand lit
Solitaire dans mes réflexions d'hier déjà
Un jour, la lune froide qu'est mon corp
Trouvera enfin dans un étoile la chaleur qu'il lui faut pour brillé.

contradiction of love

The fear of it scares you to death
The pain it cause makes you wish you never knew it
Not having it make you crave for it so bad
Having it make you wish it would last forever

All those contradiction for the same feeling
All those words that will go against one another
They will fly by; end and start again
Like the infinite loop of the time

Love it is
Love it will
Love it won't
Love why?

silence

La brise n'est plus
Perdu dans un océan de néant
Je sens la chaleur me quitté
Le vent changer

Respiré pour remplir ses poumons
D'une air fétide qui ne ressemble plus a rien
Qui ne soulage plus
Qui n'aide plus a vivre

Je vois la lumière
Comme une souffrance a venir
Et la nuit comme une couverture perpétuel
Soleil du jour échanger contre la lune du soir

J'ai faim de solitudes et de silence
J'ai soif de me taire
Les paroles perdues
Les écrits non-adressé

words like arrows

Words spreading out of my mouth
Like one volley of arrows
Reaching seeking and flying
The target not so far away

Is there anything at all that can protect
Any shield that will stop them
I feel like no mather what I say
It's gonna hit and kill

Every letter like a piece of that army
Every sound a part of the killing blow
For there is no deaf enough
For there is no way to answer me.

Phil Collins - I wish it would rain down

You know I never meant to see you again
But I only passed by as a friend
All this time I stayed out of sight
I started wondering why

Now I, Now I wish it would rain down, down on me
Yes I wish it would rain, rain down on me now
Yes I wish it would rain down, down on me
Yes I wish it would rain on me

You said you didn't need me in your life
I guess you were right
I never meant to cause you no pain
But it looks like I did it again

Now I, Now i know, i wish it would rain down, down on me
Yes I wish it would rain, rain down on me now
Yes girl I wish it would rain down, down on me
Yes I wish it would rain on me

Though your hurt is gone, mines hanging on, inside
And I know, it's eating me through every night and day
I'm just waiting on your sign

'Cos I know, I know, I never meant to cause you no pain
And I realize I let you down
But I know in my heart of hearts
I know I'm never gonna hold you again

Now I, Now i know, i wish it would rain down, down on me
Ohh I wish it would rain, rain down on me now
Ohh I wish it would rain down, down on me
Yes I wish it would rain down, rain down over me

Just rain down over me
Just let it rain down...

nuage intemporel

L'amour impossible
L'indescriptible
Soudain ce sentiment
Qui rend tout le reste néant

La peur de ne plus le sentir
De ne plus le revoir
De ne plus le reconnaître
De m'y bloqué

Dans un monde ou tout est différent
Tout est plus brillant
Mais tout est moin authentique
J'ai peur de ne plus voir mon propre rêve

Dans un délir qui ressemble a un échapement
Je rêve du jour ou les beaux tableaux seront pour moi
Ou les lits de roses réssuciterons
Et ou les nuits folles seront possible éternellement

J'ai soif de passion
De baisé qui non pas de lendemain
D'une relation sans fin
D'une harmonisation...

Je veux me faire ennivré
Pour ne plus jamais retomber
Je ne veux plus voir le monde
Que de ce nuage intemporel!

light

Looking at a light far far away
Like a distant galaxie
But it's only the past
But it's not that long ago

I see romance
Dedication
I wanna fall
I wanna fall with someone

Where is this light?
Tell me it's not behind
Tell me im walkin' there
Tell me i'll reach it someday...

light
light...
light.....
light.......

le passé pour amante

Le vague a l'âme
La tête qui tourne
Je pense trop a ce que j'ai perdu
Encore plus a ce que j'aurais voulu

Pendant que l'amour fuit le désert
Qu'est devenu cette blessure béante;
Mon coeur.
Je cherche toujours en vain

Je voudrais croire que j'aurai des bras
Je voudrais croire que je ne serai pas seul
Que quelques part je trouverai ma douce moitié
Mes ce sont mes larmes qui me répondent chaque soir

Quand je pense que le temps est venu
Il n'est jamais prêt
Et quand je vois le temps passé
Je sais que celui si est mon portrait

Je passe dans vie de femmes
Comme un événement déterminant
Je ne reste jamais bien longtemps
Parce que sitot femme devenu elle me quitte

Pendant que tous regarde devant
Je regarde derrière et croise ma peur
Qui est celle que le meilleur soit derrière
Que les bras fait pour moi sont maintenant a d'autre

Quand le temps viendra je ferai le bilan
Et je mourrerai dans un soupir silencieux
En prononcant le nom de celle avec qui je serai resté
Dans ma tête toute ses années.

half

From the darkest place of my soul
I see that I have been a foul
To beleive what I beleived
and to care what I cared

I can see now
There is my vow
I'll seek hapiness
In another chess

Love killin' me
inch be inch taking me
Life slipping away
For I can grasp this concept anyway

Soulmates?
The one I tought I found was too late
Does my soul have is other half
Does anyone have another half?

metl

Every time I look in those eyes
Every time I see truth
Every time I feel my soul drowning
Every word you speak make me melt

peur d'un moment brulant

Brulure d'un après-midi trop lumineux
La chaleur qui n'est pas naturel
Je vois au loin ce feu
qui m'éloigne de toi ma belle

Je vois le silence s'installé
Comme un deuil forcé
Par les circonstances non-atténuantes
Et nos bouche béantes.

Claire de lune ou es-tu passé?
Dans tes bras protégé
Contre le temps qui passe
Nos corps qui s'enlacent

J'ai les yeux humide
de voir ton les tiens le vide
Je pars au loin
Qu'adviendra-t-il de demain?

Souffle court
Moment lourd
Larme tombante
amour haletante.

home where is it?

For the time that is left
I wish I could freeze some moment
Put them in a box
And bring them with me

I'll be gone so long
That i'm scared to forget where home is
Althought I see the passion in the distance
I fear to forget myself

So i will go
Open minded
Close hearted
And i'll come back where home will be then.

viemémascope

Quand les larmes coulent
Mon sourrire se perd
Et comme il est timide déjà
Il se perd souvent

Le bonheur en extase
Est pour moi denrée rare
Plus souvent qu'autrement
Il n'est que calme et paix

Les moments qui passent
Comme autant de plans séquences
Sans deuxième prise malheureusement
Me transperce les sens et la vie

Je vois le film de mes jours s'allonger
Commence a voir la fin arriver
Et franchement satisfait
Je me contente de jouer mon role

Pendant que la vie passe
Que les gens sont en quête
Je saisi la beauté du plan
Ou la tristesse d'une scène

Et à la fin du film
Quand tous se lèveront
Maudissant la fin
Je sourrirai en coin

sure or not

In the final day
On the grand stand of decision
I might jump down
Or I might stay there

Is there a way to complete
This destiny of mine
Without taking all the risk at the same time
Without escaping everything i've worked for

I'll go now and not look back
I'll fly away to see where I stand
Dancing in the path of darkness
My certitudes are nothing close to be sure

fly away

Take the plane
Don't look back
There is nothing you can do
There is nothing to hold you

Take the plane because for once it's the right thing to do
For my heart bleeds so much that I might pass out
Take a deep breath show your passport
Don't get any false hope just fly way.

Nous aurons - Richard Desjardins

fleurs fâné.

Les yeux embrouillés
Tant les larmes ont coulés
Le souffle court
Tant j'ai le coeur lourd

Chaque fleur qui se fâne et meurt
Sous mon toucher, j'ai peur
Comme si ma présence apportait la mort
Comme si mon regard en jetais le sort

dernière journée d'été

Les fleurs éclatent autour
Dans un rêves impossible
Tout se fait a vue d'oeil
Les odeurs et les images
Envahissant peu a pas ma tête
Je vois les gouts dans les airs
se mélanger aux odeurs de sucre et de parfum
je vois les couleurs m'envahir
et des cheveux flotté dans le vent comme dans l'eau
la dernière journée d'été
un soleil qui reflète de partout
et qui émane de ses yeux qui me manque tant
pourrais-je jamais m,en remettre?
Wounded i am
for I cannot heal when I look
and I don't want to stop looking
j'ai le sang réchauffer
les envies pur
l'inacessibilité en tête
je me réveille en sursaut
il y a longtemps cette dernière journée d'été.

confusion

quand le temps passe
Et qu'on ne sait plus vers ou il fuit
Quand le temps passe
Et qu'on ne sait plus qui l'on suit

C'est que la confusion reigne
que notre vie est plus dans nos mains
que malgré le coeur qui saigne
on ne voit pas plus loin que demain

Dans une douleur ultime
on tente de bravé par dérision
puisque nous ne savons plus la fin du film
aussi bien joué la fiction

quand je vois la confiance
J'imagine la décadence
quand je vois un sourrire
je vois toujours quelqu'un souffrir.