night

A night sky full of stars

A cold wind gently rocking snow

Lights reflecting on the perfect whiteness

And a vision of you threw my tears

grotte

procession de bonheur et de sourrire

La chaleur se propage dans tout les coeurs

et pourant dans le miens le froid perdure

pourquoi suis-je intouché par l'ambiance?

les festivités vont bon train

et les couleurs sont brillante

mais a travers mes yeux

tout est gris et noir et sale

l'attente m'aura tout pris

dans ma grotte d'espérance

j'aurai perdu l'excitation du moment

et la joie instantanné

Mélodie d'une peine

Mélancolie, d'une mélodie romantique

Le piano lourd et pesant

Pèse sur les notes dissonantes de mes peines

Mes amours ravagées ne sont plus la symphonie d'autrefois

La marche nuptiale si loin déjà

Je ne voulais pas entendre les accords d'un requiem

Et lorsque la dernière mesure sera joué

Que restera-t-il de moi a aimé?

Et les violoncelles triste me converse

Et tout doucement me berce

Me laissant sans voix

Mes larmes sont instrumentale

Et je te vois loin de moi

Et pourtant hier encore tu étais si près

Ton rythme dictant le miens

Et sans lui que des silences...

seeing you

A cascade of gold

Flying down your shoulder

From it I see the sun

And a smile begins to form

Once a queen

Now elevated to a goddess

I've grown from you

And the warmth you inspire me

Like a small flame burning inside

Like a little heat keeping me alive

There's memories mixed up with hope

And I like how they blur together

And you don't know yet

But I sure can see

That something is meant to be

Between you and me

I can't keep ignoring the beauty

You shed on every little things

I see you

Do you see me?

Billy Bragg - New England

''I loved the words you wrote to me
But that was bloody yesterday
I can't survive on what you send
Every time you need a friend''

resentment blanket.

It's not new anymore

It's starting to be part of the ''decor''

It's common and comes with me

It's now just just another sad story

I carry the pain like a winter coat

For it warms my blood with resentment

I can't seem to forgive

Even less to forget

And while the time pass by

I make peace with her

But hate myself just more

And it's just getting harder to cope with.

rambling

How come the same smile can bring you so much joy and 1 month later bring you equal amount of pain? I used to love seeing her smile, now I can't stand it without starting to cry...

What do I have to do end it? I wish I could amputate my memories of her so I could act like I didn't beleive in it so much.

Is there any place that could make me forget? Tell me yes so I can move on? This sadness and sorrow is just too much pain to bare.