Glimpse of a sunshine

I don't want to feel alone anymore
I don't want to long for fictions
For a feeling long gone
And nights long passed

I have dreams of a souvenir
In wich everything is so pure
And everything so genuine
And then I wake and hurt

I want this to be true
I want my life to be like my dreams
I need a break from this gray sky
And a glimpse of a sunshine

So many questions

Have I ever really gotten through you? Has my heart ever really stop reaching for you since that fatidic night where I was a puddle of tears on that carpet? What makes a brain go through stuff? I mean not in a functionning way but in a; I don't regret it, kinda way. Is there a place in my mind where I can get free of all these stories we made up for each other?

I'm functionning and im ''normal''. But I feel my mind is some sick patient mumbling the same obsession over and over again. Self destructive much? Self destroyed much? How can I go foward when everything is pulling toward that short lapse of time where I felt the world revolved around your eyes and where my world had nothing more interesting than your soul.

I'll ge through I guess, or i'll tell myself. I will be me again, but after all that time who is me and why am I myself over others? I keep pulling pictures back in my head of what could have in another life... Should I forfeit mine right now?

Well see...

Invisible you

There is a place in my mind
where you exist and I with you
There is place in my soul
Where it's warm from your touch

Who? Where? When?
None of these mathers
Because somewhere inside of me
You live and are mine

I confide to you in silence
You hold my hand without touching
And from this place
I can bare the rest

Will I ever find you
Will you ever be real
For now i'll close my eyes
And think about you

Tu me prend

Le corps plaquer contre le mur
Nos deux êtres ce dévore
Dans une etreinte si pur
Epuise deja par l'effort

Grillage métallique
Auquel tu t'accroche
Le courant électrique
Nos peaux s'écorchent

Je te mords
Tu me vibres
Je te prend d'abord
Tu me répond de toute ta fibre

fed up

*this one is a little agressive based on a fed up feeling. Excuse the language

Could I please stop missing you so goddamn much

Can I fucking stop hurting every time I see your smile

Frozen on a digital screen I just can't freaking stop going back too

I am so over this feeling, but so not over you

Where I am now you should be a distant memory

But O know! Are you ever so present

If fucking bugs me every time I see you comment

Even if were not ''friends'' anymore

Because we were always so much more than this

And it bust my balls to be stuck on repeat wishing for a life well never have

For a night that will never come, no mather how many times we fucking promessed

Im fed up restraining my tears that never really stopped after that long drive

You killed me inside and for god knows what reason

I still wander in the memories of our past self

Where, did I was so ever stupid, to beleive our 2 fucked up self would make it!

Je voudrais être comme toi

Je voudrais être beau
Pour que tes yeux s'arrête sur les miens
Comme je suis obsédé par les tiens
Et qu'ensemble on veuille nos peaux

Je voudrais des lèvres pulpeuses
Pour que toi aussi, tu es envie
d'embrasser toute une vie
pour que nos âmes soient heureuses

Je voudrais avoir ton charisme
Pour que tu es toujours envie de me parler
Pour que tu es aussi envi de me toucher
Que nos regardes ce reflètent comme des prismes

believe in more

In the void of my wounds
I grew my pain
Groomed it like a child
And started to love it, like it was mine

While the heart bleeds
The head still keep strong
Holding that body of mine
In a all that I can call home

And while you are more and more distant
I still can't forget
The memories of those lips
That use to make me beleive in more

Les couleurs

Bleu ciel d'une avenir impossible
Rouge passion d'un amour utopique
Noir nuit d'une solitude certaine
Gris pluie de trop de larmes versées

Dans une vie ou tu n'es que là a ta convenance
Ou tes délais deviennent les notres
Je me perd dans l'errance
A attendre je me perd vers les autres

Et pourtant je t'attends
Pourtant je te donne le temps
De courrir vers notre amour
Nous retrouver au détours

Dept

Wearing the pain

Burried deep in my eyes

Like a chain

From wich I can't pry

I'll see my end 

In the dept of your tears

This pain I send

Is what I fear

draw back

And im done beeing that voice
beeing the one you rely on
To make you feel better when you dont have a choice
To make you feel prettier after a sad song

I bleed and i pain with you
I feel and I cry for you
And then you step back
After you take, you draw back

Your feelings are temporary
Mine are unconditionally
I raise up so you don't fall
You use me like climbing wall

La promesse d'une messe

Les lumières qui brillent
Tes yeux qui scintillent
Dans le creux de mes secrets
Sont nées mes regrets

Ses lèvres que je ne gouterai jamais
Ce parfum qui embaumait
M'échappera toujours
Au levé du jour

Ses yeux dans lesquelles pourtant je me noie
dans un mélange salé de peine et de joie
N'auront jamais la couleurs
De mon propre coeur

Comme l'écho d'une promesse
De ce qui aurait pu être notre messe
Je te regarderai allé
Dans des bras étrangés

anti norme

Les normes d'amour
Coté Jardin, coté cour
Les yeux volages
D'avoir trop fait naufrage

Dans les courbes ondulé
Un baume au passé
Perdu de vouloir
Meurt de savoir

Lèvres de feu
imagination d'une autre vie
Qui ne ce peut
j'en fait fi

fed up

fed up of trying
fed up of changing
every weeks another way
every day another thing in the way

Im all this because you said it
Im all that because I said that
And your not fixing it
And we are not getting to that

While you search
I die

Nee dans les années qui ne sont plus

Survivant d'une époque ou je ne me reconnais plus

Et le temps me dépasse et me colle

Gymnastique impossible, course folle

tabou

Le souffle court d'un rêve interdit
La sueur nerveuse d'une connection tabou
le coeur en trombe comprenant le non dit
La tête sait déjà que le corps a choisi

Descente au plus tréfond des instincts
Assouvir une pulsion coupable
Et malgré tout ce qui est malsain
quand meme en être capable

lèvres gourmandes de ne pas pouvoir
mains pleine d'un désir retenue
le regret; plus tard ce soir
pour l'instant, dans l'instant; nues.

L'interdit

Toi l'interdit

Moi le conquis

Dans murmures de douceur

Touché ce bonheur

Des yeux inventés

Dans des comptes de fées

Et ce si pure visage

Que l'on dirait un mirage

Dans tes cordes

Mes pensées s'accordes

Et fuit l'éveil

Trop plein de merveilles.

Blissfull

Moment of a blissfull complicity
I read through you like you were there
Is there a place where this is true
Or is it just about this instant.

carefull of the fragility of it all
aware of the pain that could be
aware of the goodness that ring me
pure and sharp is this equilibrium

come to me my sweet
Make so that we can just see
the full extand of our ressemblance
And merge in that discovery

Fall Spleen for M.

Will my heart ever heal
Will it ever move on from this smile of yours
Is there a place where I don't break,
Everytime I look at those eyes.

You've been away for so long
I barely remember you were once mine
But everytime you appear from the smoke
I cry a little like it was yesterday

Were you a visions?
Were you a lie?
I'll never really understand why
You destroyed me so

I don't know you anymore
But my soul still does
And I don't own you anymore
But you still do

Why such a feeling for a broken promess
Why such a longing for everything you
This smile, this touch, this skin
Those lips, i'll never kiss...

Through the night

Sleepless night
From where my mind wanders away
And what if I never came back anyway
What if it was a one way flight

Alone and at peace
With the person i've become to know as me
What is it that keep it from beeing free
Or full and calm at least

And in this pale light
My soul moody and dark
My mind in search of a spark
That will get me through the night