night

A night sky full of stars

A cold wind gently rocking snow

Lights reflecting on the perfect whiteness

And a vision of you threw my tears

grotte

procession de bonheur et de sourrire

La chaleur se propage dans tout les coeurs

et pourant dans le miens le froid perdure

pourquoi suis-je intouché par l'ambiance?

les festivités vont bon train

et les couleurs sont brillante

mais a travers mes yeux

tout est gris et noir et sale

l'attente m'aura tout pris

dans ma grotte d'espérance

j'aurai perdu l'excitation du moment

et la joie instantanné

Mélodie d'une peine

Mélancolie, d'une mélodie romantique

Le piano lourd et pesant

Pèse sur les notes dissonantes de mes peines

Mes amours ravagées ne sont plus la symphonie d'autrefois

La marche nuptiale si loin déjà

Je ne voulais pas entendre les accords d'un requiem

Et lorsque la dernière mesure sera joué

Que restera-t-il de moi a aimé?

Et les violoncelles triste me converse

Et tout doucement me berce

Me laissant sans voix

Mes larmes sont instrumentale

Et je te vois loin de moi

Et pourtant hier encore tu étais si près

Ton rythme dictant le miens

Et sans lui que des silences...

seeing you

A cascade of gold

Flying down your shoulder

From it I see the sun

And a smile begins to form

Once a queen

Now elevated to a goddess

I've grown from you

And the warmth you inspire me

Like a small flame burning inside

Like a little heat keeping me alive

There's memories mixed up with hope

And I like how they blur together

And you don't know yet

But I sure can see

That something is meant to be

Between you and me

I can't keep ignoring the beauty

You shed on every little things

I see you

Do you see me?

Billy Bragg - New England

''I loved the words you wrote to me
But that was bloody yesterday
I can't survive on what you send
Every time you need a friend''

resentment blanket.

It's not new anymore

It's starting to be part of the ''decor''

It's common and comes with me

It's now just just another sad story

I carry the pain like a winter coat

For it warms my blood with resentment

I can't seem to forgive

Even less to forget

And while the time pass by

I make peace with her

But hate myself just more

And it's just getting harder to cope with.

rambling

How come the same smile can bring you so much joy and 1 month later bring you equal amount of pain? I used to love seeing her smile, now I can't stand it without starting to cry...

What do I have to do end it? I wish I could amputate my memories of her so I could act like I didn't beleive in it so much.

Is there any place that could make me forget? Tell me yes so I can move on? This sadness and sorrow is just too much pain to bare.

B.o.B - Don't Let Me Fall [Official Music Video]

hate

it's been a long time since i've felt so much hate

since i've been hurt that much

For a while, comforted in a fake paradise

I guess I forgot about it

Resentment is such an harsh feeling

It's sneaky and always come from behind

But when it bites

It takes everything with it.

Memories, memories, memories

What is it that was so pleasant?

All I remember is what I can't have anymore

And just how much of a lie I lived

Every single one of your smiles

Is a knife cutting me from the inside

Freeing an opaque substance...

Hate filling me up, controlling me and directed at you

I'd rather not have lived our past

It hurt me and broke me

And your not even aware of it

You broke something in me and I hate you for it.

blue

Since as far as I remember you

Since i've understood an old cliché;

''from the second I saw you''

I knew i needed you to stay

Home of my past fantasy

Guardian of my future desires

You are the vessel that let me be

The balance that keep me from fire.

Long lost, to be found again

The absence of you I went through

Reminded me that you didn't start as just a friend

And every words since have been blue

Beyond Repair

Sacrifice, why do we make them?

Why changing ourself so much?

For the distant hope of a tandem,

That would maybe last longer and such?

Is there something, when in love, too hard to do?

So why then does it end after the efforts?

Why is the commitment and passion not abble to hold the fort?

So many questions that we don't have the beginning of a clue!

Make her a priority, adore her with passion, don't be selfish...

But in the end what's the point if it's to destroy us

If even with all those, not satisfied; why then make such a fuss

Why make beleive, when only in love....ish.

Semi mesure is not enough they say

But what when you give your all

What when you let yourself completely fall

And all you get is a hesitant; I may

Broken beyond possible repairs

Hurt beyond possible logic

And it's a cliché I know but it's so tragic

That you might miss the one, because someone wasn't fair.

+/-

Plus d'émotions

moins d'analyse

Plus de décisions

moins de couardise

Plus de paix

Moins de guerre

Plus de lait

Moins de misère

Plus de valeurs

Moins de cérébralisation

Plus de couleur

Moins de complication

Plus d'art

Moins de snobbisme

Plus de fetard

Moins de glauckisme

Plus de passions

Moins de doute

Plus de relations

Moins de deroute

Plus d'amour

Moins de peine

Before I left

I was in a room full of emptiness, when I had memories of what once was. Living in a lie is no way to live at all. When I wake up I swore I would remember this. Letting my mind wonder to what conclusion I once reached, I realised I already knew all this, just momentarily forgot it. In order to respect love I had to respect myself... where did I lost this? Where did it became so abstract to me that I forgot about it?

Now i remember, why I once left to come back more balanced, more aware, more focused... And I remember the name I use to whisper in my mind during that time. There it is I remember! I've once waited so long for somebody that I thought the day would never come, why is it so hard now to wait for something i've desired for so long? Desired !?!? Forget it, long for! There's hope in the sky, like always, it's just a mather of looking up instead of looking at the ground. My balance so different then others... i cannot use hapiness as a way to balance myself, i can only use beauty, passion and absolute to feel balance. My mind work in absolute therefore to be balance I have to be able to absolutly feel and not feel at the same time.

I remember thinking why was I bothering? I remember thinking that i already knew the answer even if the answer wasn't available... But could it be that I wasn't ready to deal with the answer in itself? I remember a look so pure I could bait in it! I remember beeing so revolted against so many things and angry at so many people, and then that look that changed it all... Closing my eyes i can still remember the ''click'' in my mind where I understood that sweetness should always prevail over anger, where bliss was a state of consciousness not a state of blind anger or numbness.

I'll see where this is all going... maybe, maybe not... I wish / not.

Fall from heaven

Touching heaven

In the cold dark night

Memories of so much light

I'm smitten

While angels keep flying above

Forsaken in those sacred land

My soul can't make amend

Not enough was love

My fall back to reality

When your hand left mine

Broke all the bones in my spine

Can't manage to be happy

Everything reminiscent of you

I gave you all I could in me

Also all I had in me

And now there's nothing I can do

Glorified...

I gave you my heart

I had your nights

I gave you a life

I had a week

When i poured my soul into us

I received a kiss

When I made a life with you

I received doubts

What are your best memories

Were the beginning of our life

In the end the realisation struck me;

I dreamed all this, nothing else then a glorified rebound.

And even then I cannot help

To go back if I was asked too

And i hate myself for wanting you

Wanting so bad the pain you gave me

Where is my past pride?

You left with it!

Where is my joy?

It left when you told me i wasn't enough

I'd like to hate you so bad

But I just can't bring it in me

I have put already too much

Let me be me again...

premier skit...

Souvenirs d'un moment déjà pas si lointain

Les regards ce perdent comme jadis

Je crois voir au loin ce que j'ai déjà vue

Et saisi de nouveau par autant de beauté

J'ai rêvé longtemps

Des jours durant

Lorsque tout a coup j'aurais ce moment

Et remercie aujourd'hui l'émotion qui me prend

Dans un naturel déconcertant

J'ai sentie encore une fois le temps

Se figé et chauffer mon sang

Et sentir l'énergie me réchauffant.

The little box

I gave you a little box

Delicate and fragile

In it i've put my most precious possession

And told you to take care of it

But then you drop the box to the ground

And it shattered in thousands of little pieces

It's the only box I had

And the treasure inside was lost

I called that box my heart

I put my faith in love in it

And you dropped it from so high

That i wonder if i'll ever find it back.

transformation de regret.

Depuis le fin fond de mes souvenirs

Là d'ou tu m'es apparru la première fois

Dans cette période de ma vie ou tout était gris

Et depuis tu n'as de cesse que de m'éclairé

J'entend les sons de nos voix secrète de jadis

Quand nous nous cachions à la vue de tous

Quand nos secrets ce croisaient dans un tango

Et depuis je n'ai eu de cesse de danser.

Le regret que j'ai eu

Maintenant, depuis longtemps, un espoir.

J'ai plus de doutes sur le quand et le comment

Que sur le si et le maintenant

Douce amie qui me fait rêver

Parce que tu l'as toujours fait

Et malgré nos moments de silences

Je ne puis m'empecher, de vouloir nos prochaines paroles.

Ma peine

On me demanda comment était ma peine,

Je répondis que c'était comme si les couleurs étaient retiré de ma vie.

On me demanda quelles sont tes regrets,

Je répondis que c'était ceux que je n'aurais jamais la chance d'avoir.

How it feels.