rambling

How come the same smile can bring you so much joy and 1 month later bring you equal amount of pain? I used to love seeing her smile, now I can't stand it without starting to cry...

What do I have to do end it? I wish I could amputate my memories of her so I could act like I didn't beleive in it so much.

Is there any place that could make me forget? Tell me yes so I can move on? This sadness and sorrow is just too much pain to bare.